Confessions of a SmileyFreak :)

I never felt like you were the one until you left me
I never thought that being without you would make me love you this deep
I didn’t know the love I had until it flew away
Now I regret that I didn’t try to fight to make you stay

How many times did you show
that you loved me and I just
turned around and walked away
How many times did I think
you were playin’ around
when you said you wanted me to stay
I had it wrong
and now I feel so helpless
I let you go
you’ve moved on
without me

All of me, you want all of me
but am I willing to give myself to you
I can’t let go of my control
and it keeps me from giving all of me to you

so I reject the freedom
that comes from letting go
and I choose instead
to take the hard road

Why don’t I want to give everything
everything to you
why can’t I let go of my grip
I feel myself starting to slip and fall
it’s like I don’t even know you at all

All I’ve ever done is make a mess of my life
all you’ve ever done is die for mankind
such a big sacrifice

Take a second and look at yourself
it won’t take that long for you to see
a reflection of someone that you never thought you’d be

You’ve been runnin’ and searching for the truth
but what you’re lookin’ for is right in front of you

But you’re too busy
don’t have the time
too many other things to fill up your mind
you’ve drowned Him out
no room for Him here
You don’t wanna change
You ain’t got the time

If you will just seek then you will find
an open door you’ve left behind
inside is a man who’s waiting with arms stretched open wide

But you keep runnin’ and searching for the truth
but what you’ve been lookin’ for is right in front of you

I’m so caught up
tangled in a web of emotion
and feeling things I don’t understand

I don’t know why
I feel like I’m stuck inside
but I have hope in Your perfect plan

’cause I know
no matter what the outcome
I’ll be alright

Chorus:

You hold the answers to the mysteries around me
You know the future and the present that surrounds me
it’s true
the answer is in You

Sometimes I fall
I trip on all the clutter
and make a mess of all You’ve made right

no matter how I try
I’m not a perfect girl
I’ll never live up to the expectations placed upon me

but I know
no matter my mistakes
I’ll be OK

Chorus